A lot of people will understand this feeling, and a lot of people won’t. I am not looking for any sympathy or people to tell me their here for me because this is just the way I feel. I have started to feel as if I don’t matter, how I could vanish tomorrow and not … Continue reading Looking for a Reason.
I have a new job! Which should be exciting, but it isn’t. It isn’t exciting because its hard work, because I work five days a week and come home exhausted each day, because work isn’t something to be excited about. Its something that you have to do in order to earn money, in saying that … Continue reading New Job!
You know what hurts me the most in my past few years at university. Its not the leaving my friends, no not at all, because I know they will always be there for me no matter what happens. It is the friends who I didn’t leave but who turned their backs on me. The friends … Continue reading Why I say I love you.
So, something a lot of people wont quite understand about depression and metal health issues related as such, is that a lot of the time you don’t feel like yourself. In reality you know you are you, and the rest of the world keeps on turning and progressing, with the odd person popping along to … Continue reading I can’t get up.
Sharks are unable to stop swimming, or they will die! They breath by passing water through their gills in order to remove the oxygen from it. They manage this by using half of their brain to keep moving, while the other half sleeps. For a very long time have had this fascination with sharks, I … Continue reading The Shark Analogy.
Recently, I have been on a slight hiatus I suppose you would call it. That is because I have had a lot of change happen to me in a not very long space of time. Firstly, and probably the most dramatic change to my situation would be the fact I have left Aberystwyth university. In … Continue reading Change.
For the past three years, I have had the exact same people at my back weather it was good times or bad, but that is about to come to an end. I started my time at university three years ago when I first turned up at halls not knowing anyone and being as frightened as … Continue reading Friends.
The older I get the more distant my friendships seem to become. That is not in saying that these people care for me any less, however the new friendships I have been making since I have left school feel different. They want to share less with me, they don’t want to spend as much time … Continue reading The Older I Get.
I don’t like to complain, and I don’t like to think I have had a hard run at life. To me it was never hard even when bad things happened because bad things happen to everyone so of cores they happen to me too. It was always about getting on with it, maybe even trying … Continue reading Closing In.
I always end up worrying about my friends and weather or not they will find someone better than me and decide to replace me. This idea stems from me being insecure and never feeling good enough and as a result needing validation to feel secure. The thing is it is not their job to validate … Continue reading Alone.